never the same till this day i feel alone and sad also i have a familie of my own now iam still your daughter but then our brother left us right behind you and pappa and your sister and all that was to much to hold i do trust our god and there is one compfort that is i know you did no have to suffer after you all went home i did not want to let fear get in my way so i try d to ignore as much as i could but you know its not working kenny had a really bad exident and had to be home almost a yeahr then he had a heartatack and oh mamma how would i get thru all that i wantet so bad to give up but i could not becouse i believe you hear whis me so mama you really are my best friend and i will love you and hold you in my heart forever you know mama i did not think that there are many good peopel left i was wrong i was not able to keep the memorial up for you well you know its a bit dificult becouse kennt is not able to work anyway the last thing i thought was any one would care and then god give me an angel who was sweet and let me continue iam so grate full to all of them heaven sent angels i will give my thanks anyway i can but you my sweet mama you allready know all that mama please say hello to all my loved ones ifyou can i love you so much your loving daughter manuela dearest mama tomorrow is andis birth day and i would like you to tell him how proud iam to be his sister and that i hope he will be happy andi my sweet brother i love you so much i did not have a lot off time with you but the time i did have made a very proud sister you have allways been a good son and the best loving brother i miss you so much and yet iam happy you r with mama i know you missed her and so i sent you a big hug and kisses i love you all your sister ela and gine happy birthday darling brother